Whole

You make me want to give my
all as my clothes fall and I gently
and slowly take yours in exchange
to leave us naked . I feeling like a
teenager and desperately wanting
to hide but I can't help but look
at you shyly and think how long
I have waited to greet your soul
in-depth way up to my chest and
dissolve. You will never truly
understand what this means
to me in an eternity.

To want to abandon all my fears
and wanting a hit of dopamine but
equally I know after a rush I may
hit the dust. You got me in a spin
between I am a fool to trust again
but I wanna feel without any doubts
touch you and you me. I think I just
want to smudge into you and
worry about the ink later. Live now
and maybe die later. It's hard to
be free when you handcuffed
yourself to your deepest fears,
but you have rattled my cage.


I wanna just be Houdini and
 disappear into you in strokes of
I don't care because I can't let go
of how you make me feel.
You fill in my gaps as you are the
opposite to me you have also
paradoxically become my best friend.
My go to person where I can be as I am.
We are so contradicting, but I think some
where in between I found what has made
me feel whole. How did you do that
I just don't know. That’s me here I go
thinking again .