I Wish I Didn't Know

"Don't come home"      
She was spying on the plane,      
in the seat next to you.      
     
Accidentally reading      
is not a moral crime,      
but it wasn't an accident that day.      
     
As your heart was breaking,      
she was filling her head      
with visions of her and you.      
     
She watched as you texted your daughter back.      
A child's attempt to smooth things      
between her parents.      
     
Clearly she wanted you to know      
how great of a dad you were,      
and to help you all get through.      
     
But instead of feeling sad,      
the woman next to you      
was thrilled with the news.      
     
This would have been bad enough,      
but then she started telling people.      
Including me, about you.      
     
She was telling me this,      
within hours of me meeting her.      
Along with how much she wanted you.      
     
I am no expert, you see.      
But I can't imagine that a love that was true,      
would be so happy to betray you.      
     
Or, to be so excited      
as you are being destroyed      
emotionally, mentally, and perhaps spiritually.      
     
How could she gladly tell,      
any ear that would listen      
especially those who know you?      
     
I also know about your assistant,      
And what he is claimed to have done.      
Your reaction was concerned & confused.      
     
Or how you held the hand      
of the hurt girl in the hospital.      
Something you're technically not supposed to do.      
     
My friend, my friend. I do love you.      
I didn't need to know this news      
about you.      
     
It left me confused, my mind thinking      
down roads I shouldn't walk,      
while simultaneously breaking my heart for you.      
     
If those roads were ever a possible,      
I prefer it to be a pure path.      
Not a knowledge-laced expectation.      
     
I'd rather you be happy,      
with a good woman next to you,      
than for me to chase you.      
     
In my eyes you are perfect.      
I wish I could tell you      
the honest truth.