#11

In the dark of the midnight mood swings
I think strange thoughts I think deep things
Lost in repeating memories I wont let myself erase, perceive the past made up of sins and mistakes.
No.
Lies take me nowhere.
Lies say it's not fair.
Pain makes for good fear.
Sin tells that Gods not there.
Does it?
Yes.
Trust it?
Mm
Don't judge me, I'm just talking straight things,
Just staying real clean,
Still have my issues try to keep clear of the fake scene.
When I go to sleep I feel like my life is weak like I cannot believe that people shout at me, saying that I'm "unique"
Cuz I'm not.
I'm just human, got my problems so I keep  moving.
Feel like I can't do this.
Kind and loving words just don't do it.
Its me. Life is not a movie, on this earth there are no new things.
I have to learn to do what I can, building the kingdom and being a man. Life is not easy there is no do it again.
Growing up, helping was never the plan.
Lets leave it at that?
Didn't think so,
life gets me down and my thoughts start to flow.
Words start to say but my heart was ignored.

Himalayas
High on a hill is the hill that I die on.
Woah
Mark now that's too deep.
Mm
Not deep enough for me
I hate my own work cuz it wont work for me.
Ey? You ok man?
Why would I be?
With the world on my head and my sin at my feet?
Oh and my heart sinks a little but I plant my feet, this cornerstone will be my peace
I'm still sick of people saying that they are sorry for me.
Words that I say show a lot of the things I see.
yes I have a lot of regrets,
But time wont heal my relationships.
Past me tends to relapse.
Got on my feet, get out the gloves, hoping my prayers might be
Heard by the one who sees me alone knowing what I might be.
Shifting it up,
Said I was loved,
Sending the one
to die for me.

How you like that?

With your hands on my neck and your words on repeat?
Saved for the last,
Blast from the past,
The one who still lacks,
Hello, I am Mark do you know me?