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Self Hatred

Inescapable and loud,
It screams at me.
I am enamored by the beauty of the world all around me,
I am unable to find any within myself.

I cannot find such abundant flaws in anyone but myself;
I suppose I should think that unfair, but I have no place for anger.

I am unhappy with myself,
I feel joy in everything I do.
Self actualization,
Bleeding into self hatred.

I am so in my own head,
And so separated from myself.
I am loved,
I am unlovable.

The inked edges of my face and body become smudged as I run my thumb through the pictures.
If my grotesque figure looks just horrid enough to be intentional,
Perhaps I’ll laugh along.

People say that ego is a most deadly thing to possess,
and the most valuable tool one has.
Perhaps my being is the result of a lack of such tool,
Or an inside joke from God.
Written by Nixprty
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When you cannot harbor hatred for another person (but you hate yourself so much you don’t even feel worthy of the title of “person”).
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