small prayers

I rest a prayer on your heartbeat  
like it's a breath of life  
a breath of hope  
and not just a reflection  
of my own desperation  
that keeps watching you  
chase bad dreams  
like there is a high  
in there somewhere  
if you just inhale hard enough  
 
I place a prayer on my restless mind  
and ask to dream of you  
but the drugs that kill  
the insomnia  
bar the gateway to dreams  
and instead I sleep like the dead  
in empty nothingness  
your face just elusive in the dark  
as it is in the daylight  
 
I look up at wide blue sky  
send up a prayer to the languid clouds  
floating lazily overhead  
that wherever you are  
you're doing okay  
 
I'll never pretend like God is on our side  
but who's to say he's the only one listening  
so I send out a prayer  
and hope someone or something hears it  
and finds your soul  
lost somewhere between the ground  
and the ether  
and kisses your soul  
with all the love you deserve  
even if it doesn't bring you back to me