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this eventually ges away...but, you gotta believe...chin up, chin up.

I don't believe I can do that. Atleast not alone.

In a world so eager to hurt you, learning to protect and love yourself is really advisable. The razors can be an addiction and I hope you don't have to live with years of physical pain to learn the avoidance of it..true self love is the only way..and this is a good write by the way :-) Peace and thank's, Miki

if you truly want to stop--volunteer 30 days helping children with terminal illness--bet things will be put into perspective and watching them cringe from daily needle sticks-may change your mind :-) I hope this comes across in the nice way i intend it-and not like I am beng condescending :-)

u r perfectly fine(: i totally understand, and Idk what you have been through, Idrk you at all, but u seem really cool. And, it's weird, like, I know there are children out there who are starving and i see people on the side of the road begging for necessities. I see so many people that stay strong through the worst, and yet I am only weak enough to fall to my knees for this. I don't deserve ot be sad and I understand that, the sad thing is that only makes me sadder... :/ Thankyou for ur insight!

But who. Things are just devices you use to create enough pain for your brain to release endorphins that temporarily make you feel better.  Finger nails and razors cant dig down to where your pain rises up from. Piling more pain on top will only mask the scars and make the new ones itch to keep making more. You dont need a what to replace this addiction, you need a person you can trust who knows the boundries and wont step over the line.

I wish I could find that somebody, but if I were to, and it didnt end well, I would be right back where I started, only possibly worse.

or maybe the self-esteem you build over the next year will be everything you need to see that when others betray you, it's not your fault, it is their weekness. The person in you is the one person you must trust to be honest with yourself. There is no way to know what anyone else is thinking or doing when your back is turned. Is they betray you, make them suffer by not having access to you.
My ex-best friend went behind my back and had sex with my ex-girlfriend, while they were not ex's at the time. I have not spoken to him since then, though I was so angry at him I wanted to kill him. I decided that I would refuse to see him or talk to him ever again. I have heard through mutual friends that he wishes I had confronted him and foought with him because he misses me. Well it worked. Now he can't have the one thing he wants most, my friendship. And she dumped him for a woman, now lives with her in a lesbian relationship and I am happy because she would have eventually come out and left me for a woman, meanwhile I don't have to worry about him ever betraying me again and he is suffering inside for it.
You will find someone someday, and even if that someone betrays you, there is someone else, there is always someone else. Pain is a part of life, it helps us grow and makes us wiser. Fortunately, we have a lot of years to screw things up and start over, as long as we don't give up.