Empty

Im so empty inside
I feel fucking hollow
Like Ive been gutted
Finding it hard to swallow  
 
Staring at the wall
For hours on end
Ive given up
I cant even pretend  
 
Theres a weight of nothing
Deep in my chest
My heart is dead
My head is stressed  
 
The future holds nothing
My past holds me down  
Stuck in between
Are the tears of a clown  
 
Why cant I get right?
Why am I stuck?
Why do I cling to the dark?
Why cant I give a fuck?  
 
Why can't I give a fuck?  
 
I hate my life
But I won't change
Anything besides despair
Feels so strange  
 
I cant live and I won't die  
I dwell in the middle
Thinking non stop  
I cant solve this riddle  
 
Is the world my enemy
Or am I the one?
Does blame matter
When the damage is done?