I Am Therefore I Be

Those are some powerful words to add to the mentality of the mind, being in the now moment of self is not always productive in the manner of discussing. The time you must allow the soul to just remain still, be quiet, allow it to just listen, and just be.

There is no magical formula to that other than just resting the mind in solitude, pampering the illumination of all its beautiful possibilities, in my chosen profession it is a luxury to be on the outside of the window looking in, then dissecting it from within, in that capacity, my wall of armor has been firmly eradicated in peace.

There is a thin line between love and hate and I must dig deeper in my goodie bag to adapt to the duality of both emotions, while maintaining the core values of an oath, and just being a woman in general.

Society expects of us as humans to be responsive and conduct ourselves appropriately, upon that notation, not to surrender to the phases of darkness; the blame game, I did not know any better, he/she had it coming, they tried to offend my sense of self-worth, instead of trying to find its own escape hatch.

 The brain’s core values functions at an unprecedented peak, however, without resting in its own of injustice or indifference, for some it is not easy as we think it to be, but as person who advocates Mental Health Forensic (Criminal Court System).

Can you imagine sitting in front of an individual who displays random outburst of pure rage. I am speaking from my professional view, and that details for anyone who is making a transition from being incarcerated in a halfway house, and needing Vivitrol Injections, Suboxone, or counseling in general.

In the form of a realistic person and listen intently to the misplaced vibrations of their intellect, and you know, somewhere within the scope of that obscurity there lays a beautiful mindset, then within an hour organizing a plan of care to reassess its livelihood, whereas the person can thrive within the boundaries of normalcy to cope in civilization.

Once the mind has affixed itself into a state of detriment, living and breathing its kernel. Then to have to find a way to chisel and chisel until a spark of hope shine through and before you can capitalize on the progress of its breakthrough, it regresses, then you must shift the focus of self-protection, self-comfort to find the other side of the brain hemisphere to reorganize.

I am pre-conditioned by my rite of my trade, to hear the stumbling cries of darkness, the uncertainness of existence, the bi-polar, schizophrenic, the grandeur dissociates personalities disorders that festers so deep inside a soul until it becomes their coping defense, it becomes them.  

That gives way to the birth of a sociopath with narcissistic intentions, or a psychopath.

Sociopath
Psychopath

Be advised these are not official diagnoses but fall under the broaden view of ASPD. (Antisocial Personality Disorder)

Sociopath

Not recognized as a clinical condition in official diagnostic manuals.
Antisocial and tends to break rules.
Impulsive and erratic behavior.
May struggle to maintain a job or family life.
Can form attachments with like-minded individuals.
Traits include breaking the law, physical aggression, manipulation for personal gain, unpredictable mood swings, and impulsivity.

Psychopath

Emotional deficits:
Lacks remorse.
Takes pleasure in manipulating others.
Limited ability to feel empathy and remorse.
Risk-taking behavior, lack of fear, and pathological lying.
Charming personality but no genuine love or attachment.
Typically lacks a conscience.


For a person who suffers from any form of Mental Illness, where variables identifiers will range from sane to the criminally insane.
 
In life there will be times when we must lower the impunity of ourselves to reach higher, strive to excel, and pray the results or your endeavors will be the fruition of your success.

Positiveness continuously moves the spirit of the soul. Hopefully, if it is not met with degradation, discord, or disunity.

I dare not take the passage of my soul on that course.

No one truly cares about the longevity of anyone else’s soul, other than the person who it inhabits. I say that with the uttermost respect. We are in the technology age, our feelings, our soulful emotions are being captured by AI (Artificial Intelligence).

We are enslaved to a computer one keystroke at a time, or wishes, or desires, or darkest secrets, are mirrored from heart to mind, and that is where it shall remain. We tend to hit the enter button, then we expose our souls, therefore, guard your mind, above all, that sacred place is your sanctuary, never allow anyone to encroach it, let it remain private.

I say that based on facts, once you allow the elements of hatred, racial disparity, detrimental illusions, to settle those harmful elements, where they signify your mindset, where only you can uplift to seeing the development of its health, if not, you have already lost yourself, think about it.

Make sure, each day you tell yourself you are worthy of your presence, remain humbled in your convictions, and slow to anger, evaluate the circumstances and then reassess all other possibilities before settling. We are all born with the dynamics of acknowledging what is right and what is wrong.

My free will to always find ways to help to others, that is the most rewarding peace because it comes from within and it is not asked of or for, that is my, the foundation, and yes, it has taken me years to build and yes, due to arrogance, until at times, I caved and where has it gotten me other than a time I could never recoup.

Time waits for no one, therefore, use it wisely.

I am truly pleased and content in my divine solitude, whereas I can reach the vastness of my lands, see those clouds clearing during any storms, silent bow to like-minded people in my guiding footsteps, so that I may graciously see the Grand Rising of my glorious sunrise while listening to the night sounds of the wind.

It is a comforting feeling just to be, and please forgive me for sharing, but it is better to sow and reap the fruits of your own labor and open your eyes in peace, then barren land and closing your eyes in the synagogue of bitterness, right.

Until our intellects come together, may all your days going forward be blessed with stability as a person, faith for you to continue, and smile once you have arrived.


SKC, Interim DON, APRN