Given up

Suspended  
between  
heaven and hell.
 
Flying  
I see
men and women
 
Forever  
scrambling to
live and die.
 
Never  
looking
up nor down.
 
Never  
touching
sky nor star.  
 
Never  
feeling
pleasure nor pain.  
 
Worshiping  
idols of
dreams and sand.
 
Living in
worlds of
misery that maims.  
 
Where should
I go next?
 
To the azures  
that beckons me up?
 
Or the abyss
That is pulling me down?
 
Suspended
I want to  
stay.  
 
Afraid
to loose  
my way.
 
In your hands
I want  
To surrender
 
Surrender my
life and death.
 
Surrender my
 body and soul  
 
You choose
when to
suspend or suspense.  
 
You choose
If my heart  
is ready
to surrender  
or
suppress.  
 
Please choose.  
 
For I
 
have given up.