empathy for you where is mine?

 
sacred heart Father take my pain
my poetry place is compromised by malice
and I still need some kind of affirmation from you that my soul is beautiful
forgive me when I look to others for some recognition
or hope for my humanity

I'm here breaking under life's weight
and they notice my heart is often shattered
so everyone jumps on the bandwagon
when it comes to bullying an already hurt vessel
tearing me down further
chained to his agenda  for popularity and if being cruel was your intent
my Father knows

herd mentality they follow the goat off the cliff
laughing all the way into the darkness
Father help me love the sky above me and garden below my feet again
my joy has been stolen by obvious people
who seem to love to see me grieve

please take my pain I can't carry it
and my mind can no longer imagine their clique cruelty aaway
or envision a safe to mend
I fear meeting someone worse with the need to connect

my hopes are built up to be smashed
whether I hang on or let go I still hurt
help me keep my focus when they tag team me to get a rise out of me

my pride is set aside for peace
every aspect of my life and space is invaded and taken away by them
they believe they are doing something good because head bully says so

help me Father to be grateful for the little things like I once was
before my happiness was murdered
apart from the one I love if that be your will
because the special gift I was to him isn't appreciated anymore

psych meds were forced on me
Father, only you know what happened each time
my heart squeezed I give into the delusions of love
all the while I'm shamed
for the damage the meds have done to me physically

and while he cheats guilt-free
and I better not even look at another human for acceptance
be it man or woman