Not unspoken

I feel different today as i crack open my eyes
The first thought on my mind isn't my demise

The sun is shining and I can hear the birds
Somehow theyre a little louder than all of these words

In my head. I still hate myself but a little bit less
Im curious to see what today brings i guess

Theres a small piece of hope I feel in my heart
Im still not happy but at least its a start

Its her. Shes found a way to get inside
And give me strength to look at all the things I hide

Watching her navigate with grace is what i need
For me to find my way. Shes already planted a seed

This time I want to nurture it and i hope it will grow
The difference that shes making, will she ever even know?

Shes taking a chance on someone who had nothing left to lose
Now i don't want to lose her cuz im liking these new views

I want to be better and feel like Im worthy
I trust her completely and i know she won't hurt me

For once in my life Im going to trust my decision
And allow myself to enjoy the care that she's giving

Hopefully in the end ill be complete, no longer broken
And she'll know its cuz of her, I wont let that go unspoken.