Gesture

 
in the frenetic need, I am wanton
sending to the heavens my notice of desire
it is appropriate I should love this man
wedded bliss I've discovered is a commitment

to be filled you must first be hungry

Father, I appreciate your gesture, of getting my attention
it hurt but you saved me again
my mind wanders with its imagination
then characters of fancy take my attention

forlorn in his approach he groaned inside
without me realizing
to receive you must also give great affection

allowing one the peace of being oneself
he loved me through tough times
he cared for me when I thought no one did

with appreciation in my heart, I enter into the kingdom
singing Hoesana with the heavenly choir
Father, I praise you

worlds upon worlds you have many others
wives and beautiful men according to their kind
Father, I will stay here on earth in my soul
so as not to disturb those listening

it is uncomely my jealousy
it makes me look ugly
commitment starts in the mind
love is integral but to make the heart fonder I will let go
and cleaver deeper in other areas

foremost seeking your affection above all others
but if you are busy I won't disturb you reverie

hello Father it is I... Chaos
it's been a while since I've seen the light hasn't it?