Chapter 6: Surrender

Chapter 6: Surrender

As the door closed behind them, they were sealed in the quiet intimacy of Brittney's hotel room high over the Kansas City skyline. The climate-controlled air was cool and sizzled with energy. David gazed at Brittney with the eyes of desire as he closed the distance between them with slow, deliberate steps.

Brittney's heart pounded in her chest. The rhythm of her pulse echoed in her ears. She could feel the heat of his body radiating against hers, igniting a fire deep within her that she knew wouldn’t be extinguished.

Brittney pulled away as if she were about to fall over a bluff. She looked to the ceiling and took a long breath. "Oh God," she whispered.

David said, “I understand. This scares me too.”

“It’s not that. I’m not afraid of you but I have so much to lose,” Brittney said with a cracking voice.

David said, “Life is filled with risks. If this is not one you want to take, I understand."

Brittney stood with her head bowed in silence.  "I just don’t know,” she said. Her eyes were wet, and her lips were pursed tightly together.

After a moment, David said, “I’m 28 years old. Medical science says I have about 50 years ahead of me or, if I’m unlucky, only have a few. We can’t know the future.

“So I guess it’s 54 years for me if I’m lucky,” Brittney said, grimacing with a titter.

David smiled. “It sounds morbid, but we all die. We’ve never once worked with a patient who will live forever. We work to alleviate pain and make their lives better, but we ultimately fail.

Brittney looked up as she listened with tears welling in her eyes.

David continued, “Eventually, we’ll both be decomposing in a grave somewhere or ashes in an urn regardless of what do tonight. When our remains are lying in darkness, will tonight really have mattered?”

“I don’t know,” Brittney whispered weakly.

Then David’s voice cracked. “I don’t know either, but I think I know what we both want.”

Brittney looked at David with wide eyes. She’d never heard anyone talk this way about life and death. She felt his words challenging her faith but found it enticing to imagine herself passing beyond this life and ceasing to exist or entering a state where none of her transgressions matter.

In a moment of reckless abandon, Brittney reached out and pulled David into her arms. Their kiss was fierce and desperate, fueled by a passion that had been simmering beneath the surface.

David’s hands pressed against Brittney’s breasts through her blouse. Her hands trembled as she began to unbutton the top buttons. He cupped one of her breast through her silky bra. Then he pried her bra upward and looked down on her chest with admiration.

You’re so beautiful,” David said as Brittney looked down to where his hands now cupped both of her bare breasts.

They embraced again and literally danced their way across the room. Brittney felt a wash of awkwardness tingle down her spine. She’d never been with man outside of her marriage. Then she felt a familiar emotion. It was guilt—a nagging voice in the back of her mind reminding her of the vows she had sworn and the faith she had pledged to uphold.

She felt the urge to run, but then, she felt him pressing against her stomach. She knew what was happening. She pushed aside all reservations and let her hand drift down to him. Her fingers felt for his shape through the fabric of his pants. Brittney dropped her blouse to the floor and tossed her bra to the side as David dropped his pants. His hands then drifted up the sides of Brittney's arms to her shoulders. She followed his prompting and kissed her way down his chest until her lips found the shaft of only the second man she’d touched like this in the course of her 32 years.

She’d had opportunities in her teen years and one boy had aggressively sought oral sex, but she had resisted and saved herself for marriage. How distant those commitments seemed now as her lips wrapped his salty firmness. She felt her face blush when she felt his eyes looking down on her. She moved slowly, bringing him in and out of her mouth.

Their lovemaking was passionate and intense, each moment filled with abandon as they gave themselves over to the primal urges that pulsed between them. And as they reached the peak of their pleasure together, their bodies writhing in ecstasy, Brittney felt a sense of liberation wash over her—a fleeting moment of bliss in which she was free from the burdens of guilt and doubt that had plagued her for so long.

David pulled out at the moment of his coming. Brittney felt the warm splatter of his cum across her stomach and felt dizzy with the realization that David was only the second man to ejaculate on her body. David fell softly into Brittney, and she felt the warmth of his cock wet against her. He kept pressing against her stomach as her hands found him and led him between her breasts where he continued to slide against her with pleasure.

Finally, he fell to her side, and they kissed tenderly, bodies shining with sweat and shared fluids.

After a moment of silence, the harsh light of reality began to seep back into the room, casting a shadow over their shared moments of ecstasy. As Brittney gazed into David's eyes, she couldn't help but feel the weight of her betrayal pressing down upon her but still, it had been so beautiful.

Even as she felt the tug of guilt pulling at her conscience, Brittney knew she could never turn back the hands of time, nor erase the choice she had made. And as she lay in David's arms, she knew that whatever lay ahead, she would face it with courage and resolve, determined to carve out her own path in a world fraught with uncertainty and temptation.

“Will you join me again tomorrow night?” David asked as they parted.

Brittney’s eyes lowered as she thought of her family. Then she looked up with a forced smile.

“We’ll see,” she said weakly.