Memories Healed By Needles

razor blades decorated
        with candy snow

the main attraction of
        the family owned freak show

isolated inside the
        curse of an artist

whose opinions always
        tend to be the cruelest

savoring the destruction
        of self mutilation

spitting on the shitty
        fable called salvation

with a.d.d. and lost
        emotion shes impulsive

ebony stained mirrors
        reflect how repulsive

the pain and regret have
        numbed a shrieking conscience

the same addictions that assisted
        the theft her of her innocence

cigarette laced lips
        exciting famished taste buds

while inhaling smoke off
        some vibrant emerald buds

sixxx feet deep buried
        premature inside her casket

seeping insanity foreshadowing
        something sinister and drastic

she had to find something
        she could control

without the stress
        of going to parole

find a way of self healing
        her broken childhood

using needles to help
        her grip with adulthood

longing for the lost
        days of ignorant bliss

digging up treasured pieces
        of herself with this

she forgot her identity for
        awhile until then didn't she

but im fairly certain her
        blurry name is Courtney

i honestly believe this
        tattoo helped save me

just a little baby pokemon on
        my right ankle named Eevee