Down the cocaine rabbit hole of love

You’re my everything yet here again I go..
Pushing you further and further away the deeper I go down this rabbit hole.
I love you deeply oh how much I love you so
Yet my drug addiction keeps hendering me how long will it be before you go
Each time I hit a bump the more I see you fall into a slump
I see it in your eyes because the eyes Chico the eyes they never lie
Am I wanting to live or am I wanting to die
Or am I trying to numb everything I try to hide just to feel some type of high
My love for you is overloaded me with joy no love I’ve never felt so with this I run and hide
I try to flow in life like everything is fine but deep down I’m slowly dying inside
Trying to help everyone while I destroy us instead of trying to do right
How long will I choose the world instead of our love that’s kept me afloat during high tide
A life raft that’s carried me through the darkness inside
Acting like everything’s great then maybe again I think that’s the high
On no here comes the come down another line should help that subside
I love you so dearly so much I can’t lie
But if I don’t change my ways I think your love along with me is going to die
A demon you don’t understand but one I’ve live with for so long
How much longer will I choose my addiction over doing better knowing our love is so strong
You’ll be the hardest lesson I learn if I don’t get it together
Why can’t I figure shit out and realize I need to get better
my demons getting bigger bigger then our home
Deep down further down the rabbit hole I go
All alone in the cold
Your warmth is what’s saving me from the frozen tundra I call “alone”
Why can’t I realize with you by my side that I finally have a home
How much further must I travel down the rabbit hole my self destruction grows near
Please god save me so I can love this woman I cherish so dear
You’re my everything yet here I go again
Pushing you further and further away the deeper I go down this rabbit hole again and again…