When the pain comes

The pain hits me just as hard, even though its been forever. I think back and the only thing I regret is giving you a chance, looking back I know I should have listened to my friends about how you were, but I was blinded on what I believed was love but look how wrong I was. You turned out to be everything my friends said you were and more, I hope I never have to see you again you cheating idiot, but in a way I'm happy this is how things turned out.
The experience made me stronger, harder and even though I still give a boy a chance, I can proudly say that I no longer expect them to behave because you showed me how boys are and act so when they treat me wrong I get over them and I don't look back.
And when it comes to the results of what used to be, I don't regret anything. The suicide attempt made me stronger and harder than most people my age. You put me through hell and I got MYSELF back. I showed strength in ways I didn't think was possible and even though it was the worst time of my life I wouldn't take it back for anything, in many ways that shaped me and made me able to face anything thrown at me. I'm happy it didn't turn out the way I hoped it would when I tried, but I'd do it again if I knew how much it would change my life to the better.