(22) Broken Apologies 12.07.23 @ 1:43am

The voices continue to taunt me, they never quit.
I’ve learned to cope with it.
Loneliness is dangerous when one drowns in sorrow.
Heads turn only to find dark memories of tomorrow.

The past contains resentment and misery.
Some of which may cause mental injury.
Overtime we will conquer it over a smoke.
Life is nothing but a cruel sick joke.

Kidnapped by amnesia, meanwhile.
I look outside the window with a fake smile.
Knowing it’ll never be easy to stay happy.
Nobody needs to know that.

Words can’t fix what’s broken;
Nor dry up past tears from the past.
Only broken apologies as you’d expect.
I was the cause of their pain and disrespect.

I’ll turn myself in, to pay off my debt.
This is only the beginning.
Tensions are running high.
Mother, forgive me for the lies

Forgive me for making you cry.
I never meant to display this level of hatred.
Expect the unexpected but never this.
Death waits for no one, I await.

Sorry for the suicidal moments.
Broken apologies forever intact.
Nothing will remain the same once I’m gone.
Nothing left except memories and empty threats.

I’ll be at peace, once deceased.
Family shall move on without a tear.
Afterwards I shall be mocked by the midnight reaper.
Soul trapped in a box filled with static.

Sins and regrets;
Problematic life, the way it’s been.
I’m just an alcoholic & drug addict.
This is the road I chose to have.

The tables have turned.
The truth lies in front of you.
Take it how you want it.
It’s not my call to make.