If My Paycheck Wasn't So Awesome, I'd Quit My Job In A Heartbeat

It's all about the money
and a little vengeance
and a bigger need to fix the past--
all the fuck-ups
that I stood by and watched
unallowed to steer correctly
because of nepotism
and downright jealous bitches.

I'm the last one, standing.
They're gone.
I'm not.
(there's always more of "them" waiting in the wings)
I'm finally the supervisor, and
I have no filter left, after all these years.
All the new people think it's great,
think I have balls
(I do--figuratively)

I actually just stopped caring
(about CEO's and symantics)
and started shooting from the hip
getting things done my way
overstepping
going above (talking) heads
to get approvals
for what I know, needs to happen.

I'll probably get my wrist slapped
by co-workers (bosses)young enough to be my children
and I'll give them that look
that implies :

"Well if you had just stopped dicking around
talking everything to death and
sticking it on someone else's desk
then I wouldn't be the Dragon Lady
getting it done without you"

(^^I might even say that out loud, too)

Nope.
Don't care that your feathers are ruffled.
Do you think I'm busting your balls,
embarrassing you?
That's the sign of the master enigma, I am--
you have to think about my intentions
for hours
until you figure out if I like you
hate you
or just don't give two shits

....and then....

you conclude that the answer is your choice--
it's whatever you want it to be
and I'm totally cool
with what you've decided my opinion of you, is.

You see,
I'm still here
because I have a personal need
to want to fix where it all went wrong
and leave it in a good place
for those who will
(hopefully not break the laboratory)
once I retire.

There are some that wish I had your job
but I've gone as high as I want to.
I don't want to be the fall guy
when the really bad stuff happens.

I would quit today, if I could
but I owe it to the past
to erase the last of the ghosts
that destroyed morale, lives,
and I owe it to the future
to torch the barn
where the rats in training, live.