Give up

The powerful struggle you're going through is so relatable and completely realistic. I applaud the bravery it takes in sharing your honest feelings and can appreciate the thoughts of potentially throwing in the towel indefinitely. The pain of divorce mixed with the trials and tribulations of trying to date later in life, when you're older, is taxing at best, a nightmare, usually. I guess I'm saying, I get it, having been there myself.  
I also want to leave my little two cents with you— and that is that NOTHING is impossible. I really do believe it's when you least expect it that good things tend to come along. Closing yourself off to even a hint of hope, is doing yourself a disservice. I say take it day by day, find what it is that makes you truly happy and focus on that, for right now. Because how can you participate in making someone else happy if you're not fully comfortable and happy being yourself. That's only my own shipwrecked life's motto, which has helped me... lol. (Sometimes, that renewed confidence and happiness attracts like honey... ;p)  
 
Again, I'm only passing along that information with warm regards and a hope its helpful.  
 
Thank you for sharing yourself so poignantly  
🌹B

I feel ya , never been divorced or married but whats the point this day and age.  Peace ! And mad love to your words