Estranged

I used to close my eyes  
And feel you in my arms  
I could taste your breath  
The innocence of your charm  
Days move on time passes by  
Will we ever be the same  
Will you give me another try  
Or should I swallow all the blame  
Restless night after restless night  
I still close my eyes and think  
This love that once felt so right  
Now feels like shades of pink  
Every thought and memory  
Of you there by my side  
Are impeding my recovery  
Inside I feel I already died  
Our tears and our laughter  
Everything we ever shared  
Disappeared the minute after  
I realized you never cared  
The taste of your lip and smell of your skin  
Every detail of you I learned and knew  
Your smile and voice where do I begin  
It was uncontrollable how my feelings grew  
Dreams of you still when I close my eyes  
These feelings will never change  
But the tears of paranoia realize  
To you I've become enstranged