Wine Glass

For when I had you in my span of motion, my present felt like a thousand new neurons popping every moment
Excitement in my belly welling up to every nerve ending bringing all of my emotions into the physical
For having you in my felt like a thousand bombs could explode corroding the very being of existence...
That we could be okay under all circumstances that holding tightly to the love we shared would win all

Pulling away from me felt like a time bomb ticking ready to tear my entire being into large jagged parts
The anxiety thinking everything was fine because you said it was, that it was okay and we were fine....
Only to find out my intuition was right all along that you were in fact not okay that we were over
Long before you said it I knew and I let it destroy me like a wine glass being knocked down onto the floor

Everything that I knew was spinning in circles as I sit here forcing myself to remember the day you held me
The moment you held my face and said I just wanted to make sure it was you, that you were my person
I love you. I love you. I love you. I hate how much I love someone who was so stuck in their own head
Forcing themselves to believe that they are now somehow unworthy of what love I have to give to you

Genuinely I cry over the loss of the living from my life where vibrance once stood now sits colorless
When you were down I chose to fill my cup and give it to you slowly so slowly to build you back up
But again like that wine glass you broke it and tried to fill it back up in me where the cracks ran it dry
Its time again to build up the lessons I forgot, I need to heal my own cracks and fill it up for me

I miss you with my entire being and I hate that you left but overall thank you, I know its for the best.