UNLIMITED BEING IN LIFE  (morning reflections of self perception; 3-12-2007, Galveston Island, Texas)ll always

   
     
all I really    
know for sure    
at this point in my life    
is no boundaries    
laws  nor rules    
controls  nor limitations    
placed upon me    
by government authorities  
by neither church  
nor state  
by society  family  
friends  peers or others  
attempts and pressure  
to impose or force upon me    
can never hold me hostage    
confine  control    
nor bind me    
gag my voice  
to silence  
nor stop me    
from being fully free    
alive to choose    
and make my own way  
freely and autonomously  
in navigating my lifetime s  
present  temporal journey here  
in and through this crazy world  
by always striving  
to be true to myself alone  
first and foremost  
then to everything and everyone else  
but only secondarily  
so long as i resonate and agree  
with whatever things they may want  
or expect me to compromise myself  
and my own experientially
realized and known  
individual truth on  
or who expect me  
to unquestionably comply to and with
in order to become
so as to better fit in
like them
their own delusional
pre programmed
collectively brainwashed
spiritually blinded
completely sold out
soul sacrifice to
their largely universal culture s
historically self destructive
completely unsustainable
now rapidly falling apart
decaying  lifeless
soulless old paradigm s
current frightening state
of irreversibly intractable
spiritually unconscionable
rapidly running out of rope
in terms of the questionably uncertain
remaining time here left
for us each and all
to choose to radically change our dark  lost
self and all destructive
completely unenlightened
insanely dysfunctional human ways
to better act upon and hopefully have
here at this most critically uncertain point
in our species near complete and total failure s time
to sufficiently choose
both individually and collectively
as a greater  though still mostly apathetic
intentionally ignorant
still spiritually unawakened  greater whole
in order for us each and all
to much longer have
if that is  we even have any longer at all
any chance or hope at all
now still left to hold onto or retain
within and from which to even try to begin
to do what we all must do
to consciously try and reverse
our mortal human lives and diversely varied natures
our thoughts  and emotions
our words  and actions
our beliefs  ideals and behaviors
all around enough in time
to have any hope or chance at all
to try and turn our pathetically disconnected
destructive human minds lives and ways around
in time to hopefully try and save
our unconscionably dying
most wondrously beautiful  living  conscious world s
critically sickened  now rapidly sinking
but still sacred  shining  heavenly earthship s
as well as our own and all of life s as well
failing  flailing fast approaching
final end time s presently occurring
with seemingly no way left now
to neither stop it
nor no where else left for us all
nor for all the rest of life
still presently living here now
upon our life giving earth
left to run  to hide  escape to  nor go
beyond some still potentially possible
i myself believe
truly miraculous  last minute s act
of divine intervention or grace
or possibly even more potentially likely
via some last moment s
transformational
more highly evolved
more cosmically enlightened
benevolently compassionate act
of our extraterrestrial
star nation s relations
off planet  terrestrial assistance
to suddenly come to our seemingly now
ever more hopelessly lost
increasingly desperate  dark tragic
inescapable forthcoming fate
which we human beings
as this earth s most predominant
destructively dominant species
have well proven beyond all doubt
for far too long now
here upon our precious
conscious  living  sacred mother earth
that we each and all
have co created this dark doomsday fate
for us all and for all the rest of life here as well
solely by ourselves
but beyond all this and that
which i just expanded on here
in my own fairly generalized
personal experiential impressions
synoptically summarized
loosely broad brush strokes
aside from all that
now back to my earlier
thoughts and points
i first began this
somewhat meandering stream
of my spontaneous conscious thoughts
and impressions
wandering self expression s
slightly disjointed  semi fractured
creative muse s spill here with
still now aside from and despite all that
i will still always continue to strive to be  
primarily  first and foremost  
true to myself alone  
in taking care of myself  
in making the choices i choose to make  
as i continue to consciously navigate  
my journey s way  
into and through this ever mysterious  
profoundly tragic  
yet still ineffably beautiful  
equally temporal  illusory world    
in and with this my present  fleeting life    
completely unfettered  
at least for as much  
for as far and as long as i can  
no matter whatever  
presently unseen  unknown  
future limitations may or may not  
be placed upon or befall me  
by or from some even more  
mysterious  unpredictable  external source    
beyond and other than my own  
which at some point  
if such a time and situation  
should ever actually occur  
hopefully i ll come  
to realize  sooner than later  
before it s too late  
that somehow    
either out of some previously unknown  
presently unfamiliar to me  
long suppressed  inner fear    
or sly  corrosive form or unwitting choice  
of self destructive  
circumstantial or consequential  
subconsciously chosen self deceit    
i might conceivably fall for  
or somehow possibly succumb to    
imposed upon myself    
nonetheless  
as soon as i become aware of it  
i will not let it limit  
further deceive me  
nor hold me down  
no matter whether  
externally oppressed  
or self suppressed    
for very long at all    
for i will not give in    
to any pressure    
external  nor within myself  
to ever congeal    
into one fixed  immutable definition    
some label or narrow    
stereotypical  false description    
of who or what    
i am or not    
for i will always    
stubbornly    
defiantly and truthfully  
continue to strive  
to consciously choose    
to be and remain    
true to my authentic  individual self    
passionately open    
creatively expressive    
spiritually awakened    
forever fluid    
courageously free    
throughout however much more  
might still yet remain  
of my present lifetime s  
still persistently resilient  
ongoing journey here thus far    
for i will always choose  
just as i always have  
at all costs  
against all odds
and all external  peripheral dissent    
to continue to wear    
the flowing robes    
of my ongoing  intuitively creative    
natural  free spirits    
unlimited  adventurous natures    
higher consciousness s    
long awakened    
oneness awareness s true being s    
ever obedient  highest loyalty    
to both the subtle and profound    
innermost calling    
of my always turned on    
open  receptive  flourishing    
love  life  light centered heart    
trusting ever increasingly more    
the subtle inner guidance    
of my continuously growing  
ever evolving  innate intuition    
listening always  ever more closely    
with all my senses    
with all my being  
indeed with my all    
for and to    
the ever present    
voice and presence    
of my one true  personally known    
higher  highest power  
the sacred  
ineffable oneness  
one true source    
of all that is    
and in my own  
inseparable oneness    
with the wondrous  
wonderful oneness    
of it    
all