Victim of Overthinking

I will always be your victim
Forever covered in the scars you gave me
Constant reminders of my imperfections
Unable to open up about my concerns
Unable to relax in a crowded room
My breath begins to increase when I feel you near
Please don't hurt me again
I promise I'll try harder next time
Harder to make you proud
Harder to fulfill your highest expectations
That's not true I didn't mean to fail you
This was a trick why do you do this to me
I'm sorry I really tried this time
Tried to be all you've ever wanted
Tried to put all my doubts aside
I will always be your victim
A hostage of my own mind
Broken and shredded into tiny pieces
Overthinking my pride away
Overthinking my life away
I will always be a victim of my own mind