Inner Turmoil

 
closely you watch, never too far off in the dark
silently with intent, you burn
within my sacred solemn I am hurting
 
dank days full of mischief speak things into being
sultry sin void of thought intrudes
spikes the guilt
chaste vision spits rebuke
 
inner turmoil sullies the thought
I must climb to ascend  
out of the dungeon of despair you have me in
 
singling me out as your object of scorn
I pick up your energies
and needful ways
dire in its greed your feelings hunt
 
I am gentle of desire
you spew venom
I faint inside the closer you get  
touching the aether around me
with violence
 
altered reality has a voice
my desire sulks
I cannot abide
 
the doubt of the moment
casts shadows over my thoughts
linking me to the dark over your soul
lingers the emotional pain and I die a little
 
a seductress of chastity
chastizing my own heart  
over confessions of need
dispelling the errant want
 
spiking the moment with vodka notes
melancholy goodbyes that ache
touching where it grieves you
 
honest confessions  
reaching deep enough to move even you