War Of Faith

 
Cynical war of faith

Asking for help and hold my breath and wait
exhale deep and sigh within
Groaning in terror I don't have a pattern to follow
for one like me
the texts of human thinking
fail to alter

I seek audience with himself
Audacious pain speaks loudest and grieve
is it your will I faulter and fall?

My mind a stranger to me
I'm having flashbacks
all the years I've forgotten
or neglected inside me

Afraid of the feelings
my psyche crumbles under the weight
Lucifer laughs
I can hear him laying odds agaisn't me

What a weighty measure
the breaking of my soul's bones
fractures of personalities smile at me
I have nowhere to hide my skeletons

and God wants to talk to them all

Multifaceted hurt
trauma induced to reflect his power
not my own

Vulnerable in the understanding between him and I
the damn is breaking
and I am heading for high country

No one wants to know about it
they talk of the weather and politics
things I have no power over
I feel helpless

Abnormality of the brain
the many faces of Eve
God you were my dad
before humanity ruined Jesus for me

Please help me now
or I will faint under the pressure
losing it all and find my feet...finally

I pray