Journal Entry 8

Well, I know it's been a few, but Ive been busy letting things go, stress mainly.
You see, we farm, and I think the older I'm getting the softer I'm getting. Lol
The other day, I had some kind of perspective overload, I looked at my penned up rabbits and just felt so sorry for them.
Like, they are a snow white big soft ball of love, and here they are locked up...by me.
So, I at that moment, went and unlocked every cage and set them free, all eight of them.
I expected the moment to be so big, like I'll set them on the ground and they will look at me, waddle their tail and run away to the bushes to never be seen or heard from again setting off to live their best life of freedom.
Not at all what happened.
I sat all eight on the ground and all eight ran up and around my feet. 😂
I thought, dang...stupid rabbits...run!
They are still there four days later.
I'm still watering them, they just hang out, eating what's left of the green grass and clover.
I wonder if it's a dependency thing, or maybe they are just so friendly. Either way, looks like I can't eat them, and yet I'll be feeding them through winter. Lol
Maybe next spring though, they will produce enough babies to populate the dwindling rabbit population around here.
It would actually be cool to have little white blimps running around everywhere. Lol
Heck, I don't know.
What I do know is this, as I'm aging, my heart is losing its tradition, I used to bow hunt, gun hunt, trap. The only thing I can seem to be ok with now is fishing. I don't think I'll ever lose my love for fishing. I think it's more of the aspect of being on the river bank, watching nature, talking to the Lord, I haven't actually caught anything worthwhile in a few years.
It's funny though, they say if you love something set it free, guess I'm supposed to have rabbits after all. 😉
Thank you God, for my family, for waking up today, for your mercy and protection. Please help this world, create mercy and forgiveness where there is war and death, understanding and compassion where there is hate and bitter hearts. Please help everyone who reads this, comfort them and let them know you are a ever present help in any hard times life dishes out.
Love,
Anna