Lettin Go

Letting go of pain is not as simple as many people think,  I find strands of pain and it's missing link.  The deeper my thoughts the deeper I sink. They say I run from my feelings chasing drugs and drinks.  I am so emotional inside,they are like mighty tidal waves marching side by side. Crashing on the shores of my spirit. I feel parts of myself going out with the tide. And I have no arms to swim no light house to guide. At times I feel am falling from sky with no wings to fly. I am my pain and my pain am I. If pain is a place, it is no place to die. Letting it go is not easy I tell no lies. It's in my heart and in eyes. Yes I am grateful my suffering because it is making me so humble and wise. For me upon my birth. Pain for me was prescribe.  I am dealing with my pain today clean and sober to remain alive. Letting go the pain is not easy. Yet I do so day by day  just to survive.