IT GIVES ME NOTHING

Why does it hurt so much yet it was excellent in the process of the beginning, and suddenly it was gone before we even began to understand.THAT it's over when you couldn't give me, the satisfaction of telling me, that it's about the results of the illusions of your mind games. 🤔 Why does it hurt so much yet through the process of the pain, it's still to much for one person to bear alone. Yet with the hurt and the abandonment of your absence, and your sense of knowing that you never really cared about me for I was just another pawn.Yet and still I try to hide it from the tears, that silently falls from my eyes leaving, behind grains of sand to leave my footsteps in grains of ocean sand. THAT burns the texture of the deepness of my skin. For it  will always feel, like a razor blade cutting through my skin of my flesh. Drawing the previous blood of my veins to pour, like a river of water in the open sea of my hurt and the fact of the pain. Due to not trusting me and loving me, as a wonderful person and beautiful man or woman to love. As he or she loves you 😔 and appreciate and care for you in advance of believing in you 🤔    
         ♀️📿🪷 SHAMAN III