How Do I love Again

 Love is a drug and I just need my fix
Tired of pouring all this love into the wrong bitch
Tired of the different mood swings
I hit the wrong switch
Love ain’t did nothing
Not even made me rich
Who knew Love would feel like this?
Love chose a man over her kids
Love had me locked up facing a bid
Love had me wishing I didn’t exist
Love had me taking risks
Now I know what love feels like at the end
I might have said some things I never meant
You really going to throw away all the time that we spent?
I can’t even sleep in my bed without smelling your scent
It was never my intent
On getting this close
You give me hope
I just hope I never have to let you go
I just want to let you know
I just hope I never have to let you go

How Do I Trust?
How Do I Love?
When the ones I loved the most only fucked me up
When the ones I trust the most don’t even show me love
I don’t know where to start when it comes to us
You just want my love
You just want my trust
Put your all into me without feeling lost
I hate myself for all the tears I caused
Heart colder than Jack Frost
The only person to love me without conditions died on a cross

I just want to call your phone and apologize
Love done fucked me up
I been traumatized
I know I try but there’s tears deep behind my eyes
Honestly I come in peace
I don’t have to hide
All my love and affection
No more second guessing
You’re a blessing in disguise
I often wonder why
I treat you the way I do
I’m nothing like your last
I want you too much to say goodbye
No more missed calls
Let my dry your eyes
I don’t ever want to see you cry
I want you too much to say goodbye
I can’t watch my life pass me by
I apologize
Fell so deep in depression I’m terrified
I think the only option is suicide
With the way I’m feeling I should have been died
I tried