When I Try My Best

I told you,that I loved you by the moonlight lake.
And even then,I knew meeting you was my fate.
But today,you got home late.

And I asked you if you are okay,as your smile was fake.
But so was mine.
But I told myself everything will be fine.

We used to be so close.
And sometimes,I wish we could go back in time to when our love truly flows.
We used to catch fireflies during summer.

Laying underneath the big,black ink.
We talked and said what we think.
As diamonds shined in the sky.

The stars shined brighter,and brighter.
Time flies faster and faster.
I look back at the memory and my thoughts begin to race.

But now he is just a familiar face.
And I wish I could go back in time.
Explaining this to you as I try to rhyme.

Back to the times,my years of innocence.
When I was worry free.
And I had someone next to me.

Someone to share my woes.
Or someone to heal my broken bones,and maybe brighten my clothes.
Someone to make me a rainbow,and not just a cloud of smoke.

Sometimes,I feel like my colors are fading.
I'm really trying my best.
But the thought doesn't let me rest.

It silently haunts me during day.
And follows me to my dreams at night.
No matter what happens,I smile and tell myself it's okay.

But eventually,I will be a big,black puddle of ink.
And still,positively I think.