ugly

 
I'm in an ugly mood today
I don't why
it's just there, this cold feeling in my stomach

I don't think you care anymore

inside me I scream
but out loud I answer I don't give a fuck
you know it's a lie
I care down deep

where soul meets agony I love you

I hate this feeling
I feel impotent
like I'm not reaching you

where soul meets crave

you need the lust of me
I give you my boring day
I curse the thought you're bored
I am always fascinating from the outside
but get a closer look and I fail somehow

I am strange and awkward
you pull, I push
sinking with the feeling of emptiness

I need you

damn it, I can't lose you

what would I do?

I'm losing faith in hopeful days
ones where you bring me close
and say hold on babe