Mugen no Yokubou

The windows are closed, echoes disorienting,
Crippling solitude, my sanity's incinerating.
Jealous I‘m, trapped in my infinite boredom,
Incoherent mind only seeks infinite stimulation.

I'm searching for,
Don't know what I'm searching for.
Really, what do I want?
Insatiable desire intensify.
Bring it to me, give it to me,
I want it, can't live without it.

Come, show me paradise,
Take me deep inside.
Give me pleasure,
Or give me pain,
As I live my life in disdain.

I lost my words long ago,
Does happiness lie in comfort,
Or in confrontation?
I wonder how long I would be able to stand you.

Captivated by the red sky,
This night of my corrupt desire.
Cloud covers all my insecurities,
To burn this scene in my eyes forever.

To hold you tight,
I won't mind, if you can fake it.
To hold you tight,
My ideals I dissipate.
To hold you tight,
My heart I regurgitate.

As flesh & mind converge,
My sanity starts to diverge.
Soil this canvas, our lustful scene,
Grasp me softly, the parasite in the mannequin.

Rays shine as night wears thin,
Skin on skin, I invade your dreams,
Fake love of our much longed sin.

It's too late to escape,
Precious vice of my dissolved grace.
Put a bloodstained gauze through my chest,
This love like cancer, the taint I won't regret.

I wanted to believe that I knew you,
In truth I could only dream to feel like you do.

If one love is lost,
Will another one be gained?
If the assailant is the victim,
Can the two ever be one in the same?

Poisoned by my own violence,
Visceral flow of my lone dismay.
Realizing I can't keep your love,
My selfishness will never go away.

When I start to lose you, I love you more,
The sweet nectar of poisonous flower,
Blooms once more just to decay forever.