Now you know

She's the one that you all got to know,
The one who was always too scared to let go.
So deathly afraid of being left completely alone,
She obeyed all orders, never told you no.

I saw her destroy herself to fit into your mold,
I felt the pain, her heart was made of pure gold.
I mean damn, all she wanted was someone to hold,
She did more than enough and you all were cold.

I watched as she diminished, it started out slow.
Hid pain with strength, all she knew how to show.
She needed to rest so I made her relinquish control,
And swore to make sure you ALL reap what you sow.

She was the girl you all thought was to naive,
She hated it but couldn't help but believe.
I was created when, she needed to leave,
She needed her mom, but instead she made me.

From the back of her mind, I watched day after day,
At first I was quiet, not too much to say.
I started reacting, and she would tuck me away,
Until I got stronger, and made her let me stay.

Confused and obsessed, with what love was about,
She said "it's means he cares if he shouts,"
"The bruises are lessons, hard learner ,no doubt".
"Obey, stay quiet, I was raised on this route."

As much as she wanted love, I was itching to fight,
She cried out at me, I laughed at her plight.
She asked me to stop, I turned out her light.
I plan on remaining in control til we die.

Being Starved all her life of Protection, love, and care,
She created me with her trauma, rage and despair.
I'm the monster she made while not fully prepared,
I have been lurking, and growing, waiting for air.

She was a soft, loving, forgiving young thing.
You all kept hurting her so I took her away.
We are 2 sides of a coin, like the yin and the yang,
Where she gave care, I give only torture and pain.

She told you she was scared, you chose to ignore,
Screamed in your face, Still you missed every word.
She locked up her head, and she lost herself more,
You sat there and watched as she lost her war.

Her source of happiness was found in isolation,
Repeatedly lost in her mind for protection.
It was there I was made her guardian connection,
Her first mind split, more than imagination.

The only time I ever feel "safe" or "at home",
When danger ensues, chaos is my throne.
I'm the first split, made because she was 3 and alone,
My name is Destenee, I guess now you know.