Love and Sadness

In this photograph, you are smiling
that smile I can't get out of my head.
Your brown hair is shining in the sun.
You're not looking at the camera though, because
your eyes are glued to your girlfriend.
I look like I'm in love, but
you look at me like a person looks at a dog.
I think about how i love you and hate you,
want to be with you and nowhere near you
all wrapped up into one big ball of emotions.
Why do I feel this way?
I look at the photo thinking one day
maybe I can weat your hoodie instead of her.
I wish I could be the girl you are
looking at and can't look away from.
I'm thinking maybe you will stop
looking at me like I'm a dog and
start looking at me like I look at you.
But you're still staring at her so 
I'm about to stop staring and give up on you.
But I cant give up because 
you're smart, funny, and pretty much perfect.
It kills me when I smell her perfume 
all over your tan body.
I try to be as strong as a bull,
but I break down like a twig.
I want you to want me 
so bad that it hurts.
I wish I could feel love,
without the sadness,
But for now I'll have to live with love and sadness.