freedom/peace

   
   
   
    if i could have a conversation with "the creator";    
i think I'd prefer to keep it not short but sweet; I'd prefer to have it sooner rather than later-respectfully....    
   
  despite that theoretically there's supposedly more days a head of than behind me- there's this deep feeling of pain, frustration, hopelessness, depression that never seems to escape me....    
   
  insync with this society at large- not me-one's crawling underneath nets and evading line of fire as if this full life experience were the military(with a everywhere in this world is a potential "warzone" mentality)....    
   
 a wish above all wishes is an alternative reality where my soul is free from all bounds, and finally eternally at peace