At last I'm happy

It's truly exhausting,feeling like this.        
I wish I had someone to talk too.        
Was told by psychologist,the effect on me,        
has had devastating consequences.        
Throughout my childhood and adult life,      
Enormous difficulty in maintaining loving and trusting relationships.        
Low sense of worth and low self esteem.        
I also suffer from sexual difficulties.        
Giving myself,to Tom,Dick and Harry.        
I thought they loved me,more than they loved my cunt.        
But instead,all they gave me,was STD'S.        
As Condom's,were never uttered,from our mouths.        
Drinking heavily,taking over the counter drugs,        
self harming,not eating/eating too much.        
And desperately feeling,so very deeply.        
I couldn't get,all the thoughts, out,out. 
         
So if this is living.        
Then I'm happy to check out.        
I'm planning to check out soon.        
I've prepared my room.        
I've gathered the tools.        
At last I'm happy...      
       
Over...And...Out...      
         
         
         
         
         
         
         
         
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