Mind Flatlined reactive-inactive

 
I could really do about now with being rescued by a some freedom or success. 
But in this world, this time, this moment of destruction, inner peace I can not acquiesce?


If I feel what they feel but stay apart and alone. 
Then what's the point of it all, why should I make efforts to atone? 


They say forgiving others is actually forgiving oneself. 
I say fuck them, that's nonsense, with nothing left hate is my wealth.  


I don't carry that money with me, on me, all of the time. 
I prefer the more lowkey approach, to keep my anger sublime. 

One second I'm calm, quiet, listening, you feel me as complicated 
Then you'll disrespect me, and I turn quicker than light into the Beizelbubb real-life incarnated. 


I can write the words faster, there's far more power there. 
They can speak weakness and sin like it normal, wrong doing like they breathe the air. 


 I've got higher standards, Im vibrating just that bit higher than them. 
I can't swim in their sewage, or bath with them in their sin.


If you can't comprehend, or don't care or wont listen, then
I can't speak, so we have a war of words, a war of attrition. 


If I can't express myself, I'm not living I'm dying.
Its like being suffocated slowly whilst paralysed, it's beyond horrifying.


You act offended, rage from the rejection intensified. 
I act still, staying calm, becoming more centralised 


We all have a voice, we all need to be heard.
But I try to make my words not resemble a turd.


Circlling the Pan before  unceremoniously flushed 
Leaving a foul aftertaste and a state of nonplussed. 


I want my words to hit you like your emotion hits me. 
Waking you up from your stupor, making you finally see. 


We don't own the thought, our commitment is within taking action
Speaking or writing the words is where there's a chemical reaction. 


Those actions are where you are powerful you're a part of God. 
But those thoughts they consume and they run you, so your more like a dog. 


Barking at the TV, simplified thoughts, so reactive. 
Base instincts rule your world, with out understanding, minds flatlined reactive-inactive.