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i call my childhood my home
i lay alone in my closet
hiding in baby blankets
to imitate what i miss
but cannot remember
something that feels a lot like
getting stung in the palm by a bee
stomping so my shoes light up
now, carbon monoxide spreads
i live in a collapsing home
where my voice no longer echos
glassless windows; no doors
even the rat infestation is gone
voices still whispering to me
keep quiet; keep good secrets
what is still keeping me here
something holding me back
sleeping inside my childhood
my secret little dreamland
simply because i cannot
seem to finally let it go
hiding in baby blankets
to imitate what i miss
but cannot remember
something that feels a lot like
getting stung in the palm by a bee
stomping so my shoes light up
now, carbon monoxide spreads
i live in a collapsing home
where my voice no longer echos
glassless windows; no doors
even the rat infestation is gone
voices still whispering to me
keep quiet; keep good secrets
what is still keeping me here
something holding me back
sleeping inside my childhood
my secret little dreamland
simply because i cannot
seem to finally let it go
Published 9th May 2023
| Edited 23rd May 2023
Author's Note
when night falls, who i was as a child lay beside me. the memories of my childhood are isolating, but we both take residence in what we cannot remember, and so when she comes in to fall asleep, i kiss her forehead as i hold her.
i have a book that i only write in when i am about to go to bed. in the morning, i look at the pages and turn the words into something that is more complete. i hope you enjoyed reading and perhaps this is something you can relate to.
song for this poem: babysbreath by lovesliescrushing.
edit:
Copyright © 2023 by Mila Throat.
i have a book that i only write in when i am about to go to bed. in the morning, i look at the pages and turn the words into something that is more complete. i hope you enjoyed reading and perhaps this is something you can relate to.
song for this poem: babysbreath by lovesliescrushing.
edit:
Copyright © 2023 by Mila Throat.
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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