When Play Isn't Enough

If after chatting
negotiation
contracts
and safeword agreement
you cane me hard enough to leave welts
have you dominated me?

i say no

even if i nearly fainted
from nipple clamps like steel traps

you did not dominate me

I submitted to you

prey does not submit 
to its clearly dominant predator

it succumbs 

if we agreed
after building trust
- a lot of trust - 
that you could dominate me
without asking
for your own pleasure
for your own need
in any (non-violent) way you want

are you truly dominating me?

it's just a maybe
because the concept turns me on
and because i agreed to it

i love gentleness
i crave kindness
but when emotion overtakes me
and I'm too much for myself
and others
most importantly you

i don't want you to be gentle
i don't want your usual kindness
i don't want to play

i want you to dominate me

when you dominate me
your nature is awakened
you're not a predator
but similiar to one
fiercely decisive
swiftly powerful
impossible to cross

when you dominate me
reflexes may kick in
at first i may fight
but it's useless

and because of that

i succumb

terrified
writhing
panicking
suffering

calm
centered
deeply submissive

grateful