Messed up

Heart hurts
Something is so swollen in my chest
It crushes all else
Fear because I lost you
The pieces seem whole
But I can feel the shattered ache
That drove you away
That won’t go away
That breaks night and day
With every reminder
You excused yourself
From my existence
Did I anger you? Cause you anxiety?
Did I frustrate you? Cause you fear?
Please, I need proof of life!
Did I read “to be continued”
where you wrote THE END
and send you away
in irritation?
Now it’s all too late
I broke the paths
And burnt the bridges
Shredding the last telephone wire
Until
My chest is clenched in the spastic ache
Endless heartbreak
From standing at the base of eternity
To see you missing

Messed up
This broken heart
Thinking you could reappear
Messed up
& wrong?