Spoiled

I lied and I cheated ever since I was a child  
Tried to grow up the easy way and now I'm suicidal  
 
My mother was brainwashed to think that spoiling children is good  
Capitalists rejoice every birthday party I have  
She bought herself happiness by feeding on my evil smile  
 
I ask her why she did what she did  
I get no answer  
I ask her permission to die  
I get no answer  
I ask her if she's even human or if she was an android designed by the government to help turn the youth into mindless consumers  
I get no answer  
 
I'm short and I'm scrawny just to top it all off  
I might be able to live a decent life if I could just become unaware again  
But I took the red pill and there's things I can't unsee  
Like how I thought I'd be smarter when I got older but now I'm 23
 
People will look at this poem and see how untalented I am
Nobody will comment because nobody gives a damn

But no matter
My dead ex girlfriend already served my heart on a platter
I'll kill myself to reincarnate
Escape my fate