Looking back

Where have I been?
Stuck in the same shit hole I was from the start,
I wanted to change when I'm only the same fucktard from day one.
My heart was close to revival when destroyed and is not there.
You'll look into my eyes and read me,
But you won't read the same as you did before.
The world is a cruel place,
Everyone is out to get you.
I hide in the shadows and only few will see me.
All I can do now is type,
Listen to music,
And hopefully the pain will fade.
Life... seems to have gotten worse.
I don't expect it to get better,
Then again,
It was better,
Looking back.