Who I wanna be ?

I'm not who I wanna be
Beautifully blessed with the gift of not being enough
Am I not where I wanna be ?
Trapped in my mind I'm afraid of my own shadow
Where am I going?
Should I plan for forever because you seem unsure the Manny chance's I try to forget
I gave them YOU
     I use YOU as proof
Is my great smile and personality not all you dream of?
Or is it just my presence you urge
My title you prefer to KNOW
The older we get the more your personality grows
And it's looking grem
Was it for Him my brain asked my heart as I lay down to be opened up
I am not we're I wanna be
 respectfully