Laced Thoughts

I thought about you  
Then I thought about what you did  
Now looking back, it's sad
How I fell for your words, only being a kid
I ran up a flight of stairs
However, it felt like a reverse escalator  
You tore it down like Legos
And I was hoping you were the creator  
This all gets confusing  
Losing my chances of a clear mind
You took away my map and laughed
All I needed was a sign
Are we reminiscing or regretting?
You never made any sense  
And as the years went by  
Things got serious and intense  
 
You always parted my ways  
Just like a bridge  
Made me pick up a cigarette
And another beer out of the fridge  
Is this what it came to?
Never really knowing my own plan  
Endless chances you've claimed  
Insisting I don't understand?
Stories of the dark
Trying to drag out the light  
You clashed into that dreadful decision
The typical fight or flight...
 
I just blinked  
And came back to so-called reality  
Who are you anyway?  
I just figured out, I'm talking to me...