A Timid Yawp

I can’t be left alone
I want to slide my scissors
Across my throat
Stain the carpet red
And turn into a ghost
Do you know where I can find some hope


I don’t want to die

I’m going to open my eyes
And scream
Forgive me
I’m about to start chasing my dreams


I’m going to put myself out there
I have all the power
To start throwing my existence
Around like flowers
Everyone will know my name
I’m going to start singing louder
Because I can’t stay here
I’m drowning in the shower


Spent the last five days alone
And everything feels like a sign
I should give up
Before I even start to try
I’m at the end of my rope
Can you tell me where I lost my hope


I’m scared of being alive

I’m going to close my eyes
And scream
Forgive me
I’m trying to chase my dreams


I’m going to put myself out there
I have all the power
To start throwing my existence
Around like flowers
Everyone will know my name
I’m going to start singing louder
Because I can’t stay here
I’m drowning in the shower


I’ll pretend I’m oblivious
To the existential ache
It’s not that serious
Nothing matters anyways
Please ignore my inexperience
I’m just trying to make it through the day