hey there

 
I wanted to talk to you
to tell you some truths about me
I think you like the idea of me
but the reality of me would be overwhelming

I'm a very different kind of person
I love nature and am often reclusive
I would rather hear the wind singing than a person talking
don't get me wrong I enjoy a good conversation
when the moment presents itself

I like to debate with a person of knowledge
or dreamily discuss our journeys in this life
and possibly the ones before

I am a rebellious type
who needs strong boundaries
a Dominant man who won't let me push him around
my tongue can be sharp but it can loving too

I long to be a good companion in this life
but honestly I think I am too immature still
I often get up to no good
and will lie my way out of it
even if it's obvious I'm lying
because the truth is you will see it in my eyes
my eyes never lie

I hurt with the pain of being strange
people sense my differences and it's painful
they are normal to me because it has always been the case

I have always heard a man's voice
while I tour here
since I took my first steps he was there
he says he is grooming to be his companion
but sadly I don't think I am what is really desired

I call the human body an outfit
I morphed mine to suit my self esteem
in other words I ruined my dress
he asks me if he gave me another life
would I do that again

I tell him I imagine myself in the nursery
calling out to the others in flirting nature

I am incorrigible and funny
I often do voices to amuse others and myself
sometimes my mind slips and I am other people or beings
my soul seems to travel the cosmos while my body stays here
it's a strange existence but it is mine

sadness peaks and I wonder why
how come I couldn't be normal
really I don't know what that is
I only know what it looks like from the outside looking in

I ache sunshine when I'm blue
I will smile through the pain
I hear the angels gossiping
the demons too

I love life in all its forms
I love you, I hope you know
but we are better the way we are
I wouldn't want to disturb your journey of enlightenment