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Memories pulse like an unstable current
Thoughts spiral and collapse out of my skull
Emotions collide with words and spit themselves out
And I'm left choking with regret

All the reasons spin and twist into excuses for desire
Can't grow a thing without tilling the soil first
Can't grow out of the old clothes, if you never stand up straight
The world looks different when I can look you in the eye

Appetite for destruction, but you never leave the house
It's getting hard to hide and now they don't ask questions
Clipping the capsules, because who has the time to wait?
See you in another eleven hours, or so

It's not the detachment that scares me, but the reconnection
It's not the fires of hell, but man's persecution, keeping me petrified
An involuntary masquerade, to keep things normal
Fake it like you make it, maybe you can get away with taking it

It's like drowning in the kiddy pool
You're fine with it, but didn't have to be found
You're tired, but sleep all the time and all you want
Is to fade to white, sailing into the sun

And disappear