Impostor

You deserve to be here
There's nothing to prove
Just be yourself
You've got nothing to lose
 
The other day, I cracked my chest open and shared my heart with a new friend
Comparison was her name
A rumored thief of joy, or somethin'
 
Like a fool, I thought she'd make an exception out of me
Maybe, she'd spare the knife in my back, and the joy thievery  
 
Too bad it took a couple of breakdowns
before I'd realize my happiness went unfound,
And she'd left my spirits for dead
 
My nerves became numb bunches like knotted string
And with no one to sing my praises,
I couldn't feel a thing
 
"Be positive, be positive, be positive!"
My mantra for when things went downhill
Nothing was working, that shit was overrated, overkill

...

It was time to be real honest
To skip the usual, fill-in-the-blank responses
 
No more, "I'm tired," and, "I'm so out of it"
It was time to claim this dysfunctional, dysregulated mess
Like a winning prize with my name on it
 
No more doing things solely for the pleasure of others, but for the healing of my heart
We all remember when I shared it with a ruthless friend, at the start, right?
 
I released the weight I learned to carry for others, and watched it fall to the ground
My feet immediately lost contact with Earth, and I set off towards the clouds
 
And in this lightness that my soul never knew,
I whispered to myself:
 
You deserve to be here
There's nothing to prove
Just be yourself
You've got nothing to lose