Bad at love

I’m bad at Love,
So is everyone else,
I enjoy the taste of vodka,
I enjoy the moment of the numbness,
You can’t blame me for trying,
I’m bad at love,
I’m not getting better at it,
There’s so many people out there,
Who wants this?
I’m going to enjoy my life to the fullest,
Till I die.
I’m bad at love,
I’m afraid of your emotions.
If I walk, I walk
Chase me.
I jump when people yell.
I always want to say no,
I get cranky when I’m hungry.
I’m broken hearted,
I’m alone.
I’m going to crazy when I’m not okay,
I can keep praying for it to go away but it’s still here,
I’m not really me,
You don’t know me.
I’m going crazy when I’m not okay,
Even when I’m falling,
It feels like a nightmare.
So you don’t know me,
You don’t know how I will love you.
I may not love you at all