What should i do ?

Im scared
Im scared that once open the lid on my black soul its contents will crawl out and you will behold every dark thought I've kept inside; and you will run.
Run far and fast, and you wont stop till i can no longer reach you.
 It scares me the thought of seeing you turn away from me in horror.
Ive let you in to the bright light happy side of my heart, and i know it is not fair of me to keep things hidden but; The joy, the warmth, and the peacefulness you bring with you has become something that i don't ever want to live without. Im addicted to your comfort and company.
I want nothing more then to look in your eyes and feel completely at ease, calm and warm.
Im scared
Im sacred of myself, im scared that i will run from  you again; not for anything that you have done that could scare me.
Im scared that you will get to close to my darkness and i will corrupt you.
Im scared my black icker will ooze out of its container and all the love caring and warmth you had for me will cease to exist.

Im scared